Archive | March 2014

Woeful Willow Call

She’s feelin kind of lonely tonight
The woeful willow calls,
A deep breath she inhales
And silently begins to bawl.
He is wrapped up in denial
A package complete with a bow
Fancy-shmancie decorations
Yes he thinks he fools them all.
She hesitates to wonder
He hesitates to ask
She never will inquire
He will never forget.
She justified her choices
He validated her needs
She worshiped the ground he walked on
He said good bye so easly.
She takes it day by day
He carries on with his.
She finds it hard to breathe
He finds it hard to commit.
These two are passing strangers
Like they never knew at all,
The beauty of his chase, and the essence of her fall.
She will make it thru this
He will struggle through out his day.
No better pair were matched
The were both like night and day.
She will love him from afar
He will act like he’s not phased.
She will hold the memory if him so close
While he keeps her tucked away.
They chose to keep at bay
What it would take to make it last
They will act accordingly when it arises
And keep their past in the past.
Was it meant to be?
For these two ships to sail out to sea?
Love sometimes isnt enough
When the wants out weigh their needs.

Amanda Nicolle

Dear Ex-Husband

Dear ex-husband,
First of all I would like to say, I thank you in every way. Your example is one that I learn from each day, your kindness is never kept at bay.
You are a wonderful father. Our children are so very proud, to have a daddy that balances them out.
Though we did not work out, I am grateful for you still, we could be among other statistics, and put our kids in the middle.
Though ties did frey and time moved on, I believe very certainly that you were sent from up above. We shared our time, some good and some bad, my only desire is no grudges to be had.
I am the beneficiary of such admirable traits, 
At times it is not that easy to give what it takes.
But giving is what you do,
And acceptance is what I feel
Thank you for being my friend
Time can truly heal.
So I will leave you with this,
No more ignorance is bliss, on my part, I will take ownership.
You could have been an awful man,
But God did put you in my life as planned, for we are raising adults, not kids..
You are amazing at best..yes this girl is the luckiest..

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What is good for the goose..

What seems good for the goose must be good for the gander
Heaven help me I may start on a bender.
What’s not to say that I totally got this?
Oh yeah, that’s right, my tiny angel, my sponsor.
How many more times will I feel this obsession?
Will I ever be recovered? Is there really such an option?
Some of you say yes, at times I do agree..
But not right now, not today.
So off to a meeting I go once again
On bended knee I ask for strength.
I look to the sky and wait for my answer
The work is in the intention, the work is in the service.
Just when I feel as though I do not want to go
That is my answer , that is my cue to bolt.
Head straight for the room that is best for us all
Upon those chairs placed inside those walls.
Thank you dear God for giving me the strength
And the courage to accept and to look at all things.
Straight to the chair where I am equal in there.
It works if I work it, it all starts in fear.
But as I will see, it will once again become a bit more easy..
As long as I am honest and never decieving.

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Tacit

Lasciviousness at very best, she knows perfectly well just how this begins
Quite agog she seems to be, vim and vexed and even bawdy.
Anticipation all a flurry, reality is still a bit blurry.
Still she dances from here to there
Awaiting her beau to come calling still.
To swoop her up in his big embrace
Rough and toughness is his grace.
She adores the callous hands that soothes..
Her comfort, enwrapped in all his moves.
Though strong and tall, lean and fit
She feels so small when enveloped in his grip.
The couple’s ardor for each other, immensly sincere,
Love captivates and alleviates her fears.
From now until then, she is nothing but his.
She loves him, he loves her, they love this.

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You’re So Cool…

Oh Mistah mistah, lookin so fine
Do you mind if we wined and dined?
Taken aback by all your glory
That smile you have, puts me in a flurry.
Yes I notice you looking at me
Sly you think so subtly.
That hat can not hide those glances you throw
But intrigued I am, here is one for the show.
Coy and calm is as collected I get
Until I trip over the waste basket
A tizzy and anxious, I’m losing my nerve
A fool you must think, that I am for sure.
Confidence gained upon retreive
In those blue eyes of yours, I sink.
Stuttering and nervous, I can barely speak
“You’re so cool” I repeat, ” You’re so cool”.

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Into Your Abyss

Tell me that you want me, prove it to my mind. Penetrate my soul just by looking in my eyes.
Fill me with your thoughts, wrap me warm in your embrace. Grasp me in your arms, dont ever make me chase.
Feel me with your being, sooth me with your kiss. Tickle me with laughter. Send me into your abyss.
Smile that sweet smile. Make the static go away. Do this over and over and here I will always stay..
Pull me back down under with just the feel that seems to linger. Your smell engulfs me , by slipping into your T-shirt.
Subtly is bliss, when I wait to feel your kiss. My face embraced, your hands trace, all of me there is.
Its a slippery sloap to slide, when Im waiting to catch your eye. But that was then, this is now. We have already said our good-bys.
Memories are fond, in which i draw upon. They make me sane, in so many ways, youre my moonbeam and my dawn.

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Remenisce

Lend me your ear and I will tell you a tale
One that will captivate you and send you forth on a reel.
It starts way back when, when all that glittered was gold
When glow sticks and gas masks were a must to hold.
Vicks vapor whispers in an electric trance
Spinning and dancing where everyone was your friend.
No hierarchy if status
Equality we shared
From three piece suite
To the huggable pooh bear.
Fire breathers, dragon slayers,
All, we were one
Blue Mistsubishi’s.. now those were way fun.
Yellow crowned Molly’s double stacked to perfection,
Mimes that mimed with much interaction.
Imagination was bliss and reality a blur..
Figments of ourselves were nothing but P.L.U.R.
Escape was a choice and trust was so easy
Costumes and candy.  We all were so crazy.
But though as it sits, the past is just the past
Those fun times we had, will never be the same again

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Feelin Lucky.

So I’m feelin kinda lucky on an upward manic swing,
Feelin kinda brave, for the rest dont know whats unseen.
I’m feelin kinda restless, sorta starts at go,
Feelin kinda lonely, who’s gonna show their soul?
I’m feelin kinda impulsive
Let the spirit in me fly
Feelin oh so spontanious
An emotional roller coaster ride.
I’m feelin kinda bad ass
Let the chips fall where they may
Pick ’em up, toss ’em forth
And let our story start to unfold.
I’m feelin kinda special
In a window licking way
No helmet needed, trust me here
I long for some restraint.
I’m feelin kinda lucky
In an almost steady fall
Backward motion, spiral spinning
I grow to be 10 feet tall.
Yep I’m feeling all these things
All at once or sometimes twice
I’m feeling all these wonderful things
Because this is my life

Amanda Nicolle

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Damned ‘Ole Rabbit

Two steps forward and three steps crazy,
I can always remember, though at times it may seem hazy.
He tricked me once again,
Down that rabbit hole
But what I needed to find
Its better that I let it go…
A way, he has, finding me and grasping ahold
When Im on my knees begging to let go
The warmth of his kiss envelopes my body
The rush thats felt is always so charming.
“Do you really think your will is greater than your want?”
He chides at me almost snearingly.
“I can do this” I tell myself, ever so cautiously.
For what I know, I know. It comes so subtly.
Tippity tap we dance around again.
I put my hand out and feel around from with in.
Back and forth and up and down
Temptaion becomes oh so great
‘Round and ’round I twirl, not once believing that this would be a piece of cake.
He begs me to draw near and feed from his decadance..
But I shall not. No matter how succulent.
“God grant me the serenity” I plead.
“Take this and my will immidiatley!”
Pushed up against the wall, i find the hole from whence I did so fall.
Climbing upward, its stands to reason.
It is so much harder this season .
Higher and higher I climb back toward the light.
Stick my head up and inhale the sweet delight.
Although bruised and battered from this up hill battle,
Im left to rejoice, but still a bit frazzled.
For now till then, with stops and go’s..
I know Im never to far from that damned ole rabbit hole.

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No Shame

Today I will walk thru this shame
One step forward with noone to blame.
Today I stand up right before you
And make no apoligies of how I feel for you.
Today I carry my head held high
It was your misunderstanding, not mine.
Today I stand before you and say
I am who I am
I carry no shame.

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